all these shitty quotes about one day finding someone or kissing someone and realizing those lips are the ones you want forever or the person worth crying over will never make you cry or or or
well guess what? it all happens. You find someone who makes you forget about your insecurities, someone who makes the word forever not sound as scary anymore, someone who you give your entire self over to. I found that someone.
I found the someone that I actually could have spent the rest of my life with, someone who made me feel happy and beautiful and the world said FUCK YOU and your happiness. And now he has to leave because he’s going to grad school half way across the country.
long distance wouldn’t work because he doesn’t have money or time to visit here often and will be gone for six years and by the time he may even possibly get back here I’ll be gone to grad school somewhere else.
He is it. Don’t give me bullshit about being young because I think I know something when I feel it and especially with someone like me I highly doubt I will find another relationship this healthy and wonderful and passionate any time soon. It’s just so difficult to fathom that this is ending because of a circumstance like this and no other reason.
go get your PhD, baby, maybe we’ll take each others classes when we’re both professors or something
thanks so much, lovely - my birthday was probably the best one I’ve ever had.